i am often asked… “what do you think about when submitting”, “what goes through your mind”, “how do you feel”… well there are many thoughts, some daring, some scary.
my usual first thought is… oh pease i hope He finds me pleasing, i hope i am doing what he wishes- that i heard right, that i moving as he wishes… to hear “good girl” makes my heart race, makes the lil butterflies in my tummy dance, makes me get wetter, my nipples perk ,makes me want to do more to please…
i also start to think, anticipate… i wonder what he will want next, what will he wish next… sometimes this is to my detriment as i anticipate and antipate wrongly… and mostly because i love the thrill of not knowing what will happen next, not knowing what he will next wish…. that thrill is like riding a roller coaster for the first time!
thoughts deeper than that though are there… submission is more than just saying “Yes Master” and having your bottom spanked or being tied up. i always think of submission as a total surrender, totally letting go, the chance to be myself completely, the chance to be owned. the feeling of almost a relief of total surrender, total escape from my day, total relaxation… the thoughts are blissful i think is the best summary…
~posted per Master Jimmy’s instructions
Well I definetly always find you very submissive and a very very ‘good girl’…as for your last entry about limits, well, I definetly try to stretch yours to the very brink sometimes *grins*